May (MAY!!?!) 3, 2011

You know those dreams that you really know that you shouldn't be having that you have anyway, and then you feel guilty about them later?

I do. I get them sometimes. And then I feel really guilty about my dreaming conscious. It's weird. I don't know why. I just do. Probably because I know that if it exists in my subconscious, it's a thought I've had, however fleeting, and that thought decided to represent itself in my dream worlds.

Sometimes they're good dreams, though, and while not reality they're still fun to dream up :D

Other than that, I have a nice, busy week off between classes planned. My mom came up this weekend. I've got planning to do for a friend's bachelorette bash, which I'm excited about, because she told me to invite my other closest friend. I'm glad they get along because they along with my cousin are going to be my own Maids of Honour... Yes. I am having 3 maids of honour. I love them all equally and do not want one to have more responsibilities than another. I'll make up other titles to bestow on my sisters.

Speaking of my own wedding for once with someone other than my fiance, he surprised me by saying that he may be interested in holding a ceremony. That's something that I never really wanted. I don't want to be married by someone while standing up at the front of a crowd. I don't like that.

But I think having friends and family together is worth whatever we have to do, as long as it's cheap. I don't want to pay ten thousand dollars for a wedding; that seems kind of weird and like a waste of money. That was precisely why I said a barbeque on a beach.

I like the idea of that. I'm really interested in that. And afterwards, I can go camping with those who want to. The end.

Maybe...

But it doesn't matter until June 11, 2011, when Becka is having her wedding. I tried to keep my own ideas to myself until then...

Not that it matters. I'm not even sure of a date yet. It'll be a while coming, probably 2013. Anyway, that's what I'm thinking about currently.

Silly unrealistic dreams that exist somewhere from some point in time in my subconscious, and my own wedding(not sure I should even call it a wedding. What about a joining? A collective? A merger? lol).

A merger it is. Hahahahahaa...

ETA: I mis-typed the date. It's the third, not the fifth.