Hm... I miss chivalrousness in men. I think that's why I'm still single. I want a man who's oging to be honourable, and a lack of honour and loyalty turns me off.
Now that that's stated, I also can't stand meekness. They have to have enough confidence that they're not going to back down when something steps in their way.
I want perfection.
I want a storybook romance.
And I'm going to find it or die an old maid... with a few manslaves, because just because I'm single doesn't mean I can't keep myself happy. I just will forever be a wandering spirit, haunted with loneliness.
*sigh* I'm lonely now. I can only hope that getting out of where I am will help that.
I've noticed that I'm not happy here, and haven't been since last September; I feel stifled, and unable to move. For a while it was solved after I broke off all my male-female relationships. But recently everytime I go to the mountain brow's edge, I get lost... it's weird, I know. And it sounds depressing, but... I don't know. It's hard to explain. I just feel this crazy need to leave, to get away, and to express myself differently; I need to find something, I'm lost and something's not right. I'm not going to kill myself, or do something crazy, but I sure will be glad to get away and explore different things, until I get comfortable again. And that sure as heck isn't going to be here.
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