February 12, 2008

Wow. I was just doing my homework... Damn right, I said homework. I actually work on school stuff outside of school... impossible, non?

Anyway, I think I'm getting art-ed out... Or, maybe my hand's just tired and my brain's done thinking... either way, I know that it's too much thinking for me. So I'm taking a break.

You know it's time to take a break from work when your brain starts to look at romance story lines and your body follows suit.

Hell.

I think that this is one of the reasons I need University to hurry it's damn self up. I love being single, but I hate being single sometimes. I just don't like not having someone to be with when I feel like having them. So, maybe I was a sailor in one past life, but in a different one I was a countess who had men at her disposal.

Actually, I feel kind of like a werewolf. I don't want to be around anyone else, I want to be alone, yet here I sit longing for someone, so much so that FB started coming to mind again. I don't want to be with him in any dating sense, I just want to know what he's up to (And if his bed's cold).

But it has nothing to do with him, because then I think about this character that I invented, and I think nearly the same thing for my main female character. Man, I need some supreme cuddle time at school. I love my non-single friends. They're pretty awesome. They were pretty interested in hugging me all the time, and I like that. I like knowing that nothing could ever happen between us, but that it's okay to be all cuddly. Actually, there's two guys in particular that I feel particularly open to. It's not usual that I find two guys to be close to. And I mean it. I would totally be able to sleep with these guys and just enjoy it. I'm not saying that it'll ever happen, but I like the fact that it could happen.

Wow. Talk about openness. Oh well, it's my blog. I'm just feeling lonely.

Someone needs to write a book about relationships in singledom. :D If I knew anything, I'd write one.

The only thing is, I don't want to get into a relationship with someone random, because they don't get me, they don't know what I want from it. I don't want to be serious. I don't want to wake up every single day and dote on them. I want to dote on me. I want to be selfish. I want to have what I want, when I want... but I also don't want a grab and go sandwich, if you know what I mean. I want someone who will be there when I need them to be, physically or emotionally, and who knows when to stay away from me, because I don't like being attached at the hip. In fact, I can't stand it. I hate it. It's so... frustrating, to have to talk to someone about every little thing that you think, and they just don't get it half the time, because they're not in your head.

That's what I want.

I want someone who can get in my head, so we can play debates, have hot monkey sex, debate some more while we're eating, have another romp, and then roll over and go to sleep.

Oh, boy. I want perfection. 'Cause that's likely to be found.

*sigh.* I really did sigh out loud there.

I'm so hard to please.

But if you think you fit the bill, definitely call me, or just jump me, or something like that. I'd be happy either way.

Other than that, I think also that I'm all thought out, and that I need to get a shower, a nice, meditative, self-cleansing shower. Yes. So, good night, I'm off for the night, I hope.