February 24, 2009

So, I finally found a fifth for the house (hereafter, generally referred to as 'my house' even though it's technically not) that the group of me and my friends are renting. For the most part, life's pretty good right now. It's like, just, even. Once in a while a terrible thing comes along, but sometimes, good also comes from it.
Short update today, really. Kinda jittery from the coffee I drank...it's sad 'cause it was only a double-double.
Also: I found ebay. It. Is. Awesome.
But I'll be spending money on there if I am not careful.
On the plus side, I'll get more crap!
Whoo!
Ooh, and I ordered the new charger for my battery. Yay!

February 17th, 2009

I realized today, that I have different views about a few really big things that might eventually come into play in my life.

It all started while I was watching "Without a Trace".

First, I thought that if I knew someone that I was close to who was receiving treatment for something that it would be unfair to push them to the extent of 'against their will'. For example religious reasons--with the exception of a child who was under the age of majority, and below the age of wherever I was legally, because that child should not be denied any treatment because of a parent's religion and beliefs. The child should be free to make decisions after the age of majority, when they are old enough to understand the consequences of their actions, by law.

Then, while I was thinking, I was trying to figure out what would have happened if I had pursued becoming a doctor. As a doctor, I would push to give the patients the treatment that they needed as long as the pros outweighed the cons, because why shouldn't something that can be helped, be helped?

And then, I was thinking that as a person, I would want my mother to have what she wanted, whether that was life or death.

Which led me to think about helping a person commit suicide, which I entirely disagree with, seeing as I can't comprehend suicide, because to me I have been raised to be disgusted by suicide. There is always worth in someone, regardless of their situation... or was there?

Is there? Can a pedophile ever be forgiven for what he or she has done? 

Can a person who murdered a close family member ever be forgiven, or accepted?

No. 

Not by me. They would deserve to be punished in the exact same manner that they caused the problem. If they killed, kill them.

And then: I could never banish someone to death. No, not those murderers, not someone who raped children. Life is precious. And if I were to kill them for killing someone of mine, it would be nothing compared to the guilt that they could suffer for the rest of their natural lives, if they were to know me. It would be a fate worse than death, perhaps instilling a need for suicide in them. 

Which would be fine by me.

But would they suffer guilt? Perhaps they were raised to think that they had the right to take a life? The guilt would never occur. Then, then I would vote for the death sentence.

And all of this filtered into: I really have a very skewed view of my own beliefs. I don't really know what I would do in any situation, because it depended on the situation; on the balance of outcomes. 

And I blame it on being Canadian, and watching American shows, and having certain beliefs. I believe, sometimes, an eye for an eye, but the school system says walk away, give everyone a chance. Believe in people. Even the bad guys have a reason to do what they do. 

Yet, no one has ever proved that pedophiles are acting the way they do for any reason; there's never been proof that like physical or emotional abuse, that there's a background reason for their actions.

Not to my knowledge anyway. Maybe I should search a little more into the subject, before I make assumptions.

So, I am left with the really confused section of thoughts: Who is right, and who is ever wrong if they are so easily swayed depending on environment, consequential proof, personal beliefs, morals of surroundings and a past? 

No one, and everyone, I suppose.

Another one of those 'everything is relative' things. Right and wrong are only right and wrong when a person believes them as such, and only by that person...

So how do we know that all of our laws are right?

February 15, 2009

So, yesterday was Valentine's Day. Yes, yes, love to anyone who needs it. Don't go killing yourself because no one wanted to be your valentine. They're not worth it anyway. You're better than they are.

Anyway, I'm sure that there's some Saint somewhwere going "aaahhhh... it's always about the chocolate". I wonder... was the person obsessed with cocoa beans? Why is there chocolate involved? Seriously...
I actually had to stop and think about this.
There are so many holidays in the Western world that involve things that we aren't supposed to be eating, or drinking, or doing... Nearly one a month. Holidays like April Fool's day, which aren't about doing things that we Westerners won't usually do (for health reasons, or because of our ingrained phobias of gaining weight and looking...fat...) aren't celebrated as widely, nor are they as... economically based?
Heh. How about that. I mean, how could anyone possibly turn a day like that day in August which is some sort of civic holiday. I can't even imagine the Sears posters up around the store:
"It's that day in August again! Save 2% on all fashions that are previously red tagged and also on the clearance racks!"
"TSITACH: Thank Sears It's The August Civic Holiday"
And heck, we might as well even find someone's name to throw in on the civic holiday...
I know...
August Civic Holiday (ACH): Nifzeta finished chapter six in the Aeneid Day!

Well, hey! If the governments and companies can do it for crappy days like Valentines day that really don't mean much or even have a significant background related to what the day is (Seriously guys, do you really only love your girlfriends once a year??? I mean, come on. And ladies: Why do you expect anything from him? What day does he have to get stuff from you? I mean, he does NOT want that teddy bear, regardless of the fact that he just said it's the cutest thing he's ever gotten, because you'll turn your back and he'll take it off the middle of the pillow you just laid it on, and then toss it into the pile of them that you've gotten for him since you two started dating.)

No, the best day I've ever heard of is Steak and a Blow Job Day (March 14th) (Facebook Group since the website was not... quite... 14A. : http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=2245265187). Now there, right there, is a great holiday. And if we're going to be forced to observe the pitiful Valentine's day every year, then Steak and a Blow Job Day should also be observed.
It's only fair.
If the ladies expect a day all for them full of diamonds and chocolate and teddies and cards... men get a day of this.

And ladies (or men): Before you say anything to me: I am female. I am straight. And I have a boyfriend. I have never liked Valentine's day, either when I was single or not. I have never liked that holidays are so obsessed with economic value.
And I certainly do not wish that people should celebrate anything out of the peer punishment received if they avoid the celebration.

Which is what has really set me off in the first place.
Valentine's day, if it is celebrated, should be about love. First and foremost. I'm not saying go out and get laid, which I'm sure was a mantra of about half the sixteen year olds in every high school around where I was yesterday. I mean, think about what love means to you.
What does it mean to you?
Is it more important than other things? Less important?

Good. Now that you have thought about that, think about this: If it's more important than other things, why do you not celebrate it more often?
Why are you suckered into giving a gift to someone only on one specific day of the year, when it's expected? And how does that really show you care? Because you... pulled out your MasterCard or your Visa or your Debit or your cash and you handed it over to some kid behind the counter, selling half-dead (or possibly very nice, if you skipped work or other responsibilities)?

Every day is a good day to tell someone you love them. Every day is a good day to show someone you care. Every day, not just February the fourteenth, should be a day of celebrating the care that you have for others. Parents, significant others, friends, siblings, or any other acquaintance that you feel necessary to you should be shown every day that you are respectful of them, that you are thankful to have them, and that you might even, sort of, waaaayyy down deep, kinda sorta might just feel like... maybe...
You think Valentine's day is just a liiiiiiiiiitttllee too worked up by companies to be a good holiday.



...And if you feel that there is no one to love, and no one loves you, remember this: You should love you, because you're better, because you're in your head, and they aren't. Unless they are... in which case, you may need some form of medication, or you need to take out the glass tubing that you thought would be cool to have installed in your own head the other day.
It was a baaaddd idea, dude.
Seriously.

February 3, 2009

I am twenty tomorrow, and I feel old. Other than that, my computer needs to be formatted--again. It has like a six month death worm or something. It blue-screen-of-death'd me this morning. I was NOT happy. On the plus side, I have this awesome mac that I sit and mess around with when the Dell's being a bi... yeah. You know where I'm going with it.

The music that I'm listening to is all over the place since I'm intermittently renaming songs that my iTunes feels it necessary to rename in sets of four letters such as "LHFS" since I put music on my computer from my boyfriend's.

His computer's on the fritz, too.

My car has officially died, poor thing, a product of the temp guage melting, then a head gasket blowing, and some other thing. So, it overheated, blew the head gasket, and it costs more to replace than my car did when we got it. Seeing as the poor car has like, 489000 km on it, I'm going to say that's a hell of a long life, and I'm ready to sell the pieces, (some of which I replaced this summer. My car was fairly expensive for me this summer.)

So, now I'm looking for a new one. A cheap new one, actually.

Volkswagon, anyone? :D I would love one.

Anyway, for real, though, my dad's looking at a standard sunfire. I like them. I've thought they were cute for a while. I like the shape of them, and I like the inside. It also seems like every rugby player that I know drives them. I don't know. They're just a standard rugger car. He's looking at a two-door. Which is cool, too. Not like I need a fifteen door vehicle. There's one of me, and usually one passenger.

I just don't like the buses around here, and it's too cold to leave and stand at a bus stop after like, five at night, because then you freeze some interesting body parts off. Ones that you need.

Anyway, not much else going on. Let's see:

1)broken car

2)homework

3)iTunes and computer being a... yeah.

sounds about right!

Okay, I guess I'm off. Luck be with everyone.